I suddenly missed blogging! I’ve not been blogging for no reason at all, I just don’t feel like it. I had an epiphany that no matter how long I don’t feel like blogging I will always love it again. And how many times did I type “blogging”? Haha! 

Though nobody is asking, I’m doing absolutely great! School has been giving me hell but whatever! This school year is almost over which is a very good thing that will happen this 2013 hahaha!

Haha-ing much?

*please forgive me with this crazy post 

I can’t count the times I told people that I’ll just be a nun someday when talking about romantic relationships and marriage. I had never been into a relationship and I’m pretty sure that I’m still not ready to enter one. I’m quite uncomfortable talking about romance so I tell people as a joke and excuse that I’ll just be a nun someday. With those times I tell them about me being a nun, I started imagining myself being one and liking the thought of me being one. I salute all the nuns, because they have that very strong faith to God that they committed theirselves to him and leave everything behind.

This midnight, I realized that I don’t want to be a nun. I want to have someone, that will be the man I’ll be loving besides my father, that I’ll be with the rest of my life. I know this isn’t the right time but I know it will come. I CAN wait. I know for some reasons that it will take a long time. I will not wait desperately, I will wait doing something else that makes me happy. I’m not really a person who talks about Love and knows everything about Love but one thing is for sure, I’m capable of Love.

I guess this is the 18 years old corny Czar talking with a messed up body clock.

Midnights make me mature. I will be back to my old lunatic self later.
Ciao!

So I read the Fault in our Stars the whole midnight and didn’t stop until I reach the end. It is a good book that I can’t stop reading. I cried a lot that my eyes are swelling right now. I just have a soft spot for deaths in movies and books, also in reality of course.

While we were busy worrying about how our life is so shitty sometimes there are some who are worrying about how their lives will end soon.
There is the different side of the world that I haven’t seen that this book let me. It made me so happy and blessed that I’m healthy.

Oh, John Green, you never disappoint me with your books! An abundance of Katherines and Paper Towns left unread. For sure I will also love those like how I love The Fault in our Stars, Looking for Alaska and Will Grayson, Will Grayson.

What if I do something bad and it will be caught on tape by a stranger then he will post it on the internet and people will despise me so much for that?
I can’t imagine thousands of people hating on me. I can’t imagine being infamous. I can’t imagine people making fun of me. I can’t imagine going outside of my house and be judged by other people. I can’t imagine how my life would be in that way. That’s a great downfall indeed.

I’m very uncomfortable and uneasy whenever someone hates me, what more when a LOT of people hate me as if I killed someone.

I wonder how those people who experienced this kind of situation sleep at night. It’s like a nightmare.

Tip: Be the kindest person you can be! If you meet an asshole, don’t throw a fit! You never know, there maybe someone recording your scene ;)

We say that a lot whenever people have advantage over us but how about the other way around, when we are the ones who have advantage over the others? We never complain how life is so unfair when we are the ones at the top.

One of the busiest months this year for me. I didn’t have the time to update my blog since I’m very busy even on weekends. 

Here are some photos taken this September 2012 (in sequence)

Debut of my blockmate Trish

      A very touching celebration that I was in tears. Her father is out of the country and they talked via phone patch, she cried and you can really see how she  longs for her father. I got carried away and cried too. 

Mom’s birthday celebration at Barbara’s Intramuros

That was my first time in that area of Intramuros and I really admired the place. We had our dinner at Barbara’s, there was a Cultural dance while we were eating which I enjoyed. Awesome place, awesome food!

Cosmania 2012

It was my first time to attend a cosplay event and I was really happy how people took pictures with my friends haha!

So glad that I blogged again :’)

Adios Amigos!

I spent my Sunday grocery shopping and cleaning my room. Whenever I clean, I see things I never seen for ages and become sentimental for a moment. That’s why it always took me hours to finish cleaning.

Photos while cleaning

Here are some letters I got back in high school! This is one thing I miss about high school, the giving out of retreat letters or just simply letters from your friends. The creativity and effort that they exert with every letters and especially the content of it make me very happy. 

My cork board ♥

I bought that hooks from Japan home centre. I was scared that its tape is not that strong to carry my accessories but fortunately, it’s very very durable.

Recent finds: Arctic Stone lipstick from Fashion 21. This has a maputla effect in a good way! Really love it

Recent finds: Friendship bracelets at 25 pesos each from Sm dept. store. I’ve been looking for affordable friendship bracelets online but I still don’t have the time to buy one since there’s a certain process like filling an order form, contacting the seller, paying over the counter, informing the seller that you already paid and etc. It’s somewhat time consuming and I’m lazy.

You guys may don’t know that I’m a fan of Bossanova. It’s so relaxing and ear candy.

Justin Bieber’s latest album “Believe” playing while I was cleaning.

That’s all! Adios Amigos!

This is the lunatic side of me speaking how my life is an epitome of being predictable. I’m just tired how my every days are the same. Yes, I go to school everyday and that’s something I can’t escape from but I want something more than that but I can’t figure it out. How tiring to think what I really want. My want that would probably make everything better. I’m sooo dramatic right now. Ughhh, I just want to sleep to ease my mind but I need to do something for school.

:(

What the hell do I want…